I got moving on my mind

I'm planning like crazy, I know deep down that I'm doing too much and that I'm going to end up heading towards exhaustion, I just don't want to have the chance to sit with all the crap spinning in my head.

I don't want to remember but I can't forget so I have to do something. What's the logically alternative to self-destruction? Yep, extreme productiveness...

This is something that I probably need to bring up at crisis but 99% of my brain is screaming at me to quit, never talk about it again, never think about it again, and keep moving.

I am so angry and fustrated that I have to deal with this shit, and then the feelings of deserving it and asking for it kick in...

Deny everything.