Lately...

I'm feeling ill at the moment, which is good. Stops me wanting to eat. I've had this kind of flu type virus twice so far this year, and I think I'm getting it again. That can't be good.

I'm really stressed, I don't notice I am, I'm just used to feeling so edgy and hopeless I guess, but I think my hair's falling out. I found a bold patch on the side of my head, it might be from dying but it doesn't seem to be healing. I wanna cry :(

Good things... I think my stomach is shrinking, yesturday I didn't eat all day, my belly was killing me. My boyfriend came home at about 7ish and cooked a pizza, I had to struggle to get through a single slice. The good thing about my boyfriend is that he's like waste disposal, he's one of those extremely skinny people who's ribs stick out even though they eat crap constantly. Whenever I look down at a plate of food (He always makes me dinner even if I tell him not to) If I just eat a believable amount I can force the rest on his bottomless pit of a stomach. If I don't eat any then he refuses to take it from me until I do.

Our relationship is suffering. He thinks I don't trust him. It hurts him when I don't want to have sex with him or even undress in front of him. I don't know how many times I've told him that it's my issues and nothing else. He never listens. He likes just trying to stuff me with food, that makes me hate myself even more. It's like a viscious circle.

Anyway, I know I ramble too much, so I'm stopping now!

Today could be the day that you discover the secret to true happiness. Good luck ladies. x