I've been taking Adios pills for maybe about a week... there's not alot of difference yet, but I did lose two lbs unexpectedly even though obviously I then gained a lbs over night, I hate how my weight changes so much, I never know if I'm right on the right track or If I'm messing up. I've started dancing again, that should get a few of the little bastards to shift, and I'm wearing high hells all the time, I assume they burn more calories than normal shoes, not sure though.
I hate myself though, I was in town yesterday, was meant to be shopping but I just didn't feel worthy of any of the clothes, and my mum has made an appointment with me for the salon tomorrow... I don't want to be made all pretty and nice, I feel like just staying completely still all day every day and not interacting with anyone or doing anything. I did however buy hair dye, blue and pink... I dunno I guess I just wanna be different, I hate who I am so somehow I think that dying my hair will change me. I also got huge black sunglasses, I love hiding behind sunglasses. And of course I got Gaga's new album, I've only listened to it once so far but I think I need to let the tracks grow on me. I hope all you guys are good, and I hope some lucky little ducklings hit their goal weights soon. I wish I could... I don't even really HAVE a goal weight, I think I'll just know when I'm fixed. Fixed of fat, and of hiding behind glasses, and of dying my hair crazy colours just to try and escape from myself.
Get In Touch Guys xxx And here's some thinspo. Enjoy.
No comments:
Post a Comment