Arrrggg!!!

I'm so fucking pissed off. So I got drunk with my friends yesturday, and both of them have lost half a stone since i last saw them, and here I am, following my diet, and working out everyday (which neither of them do). And I've gained two fucking lbs!! I havn't done anything wrong! And it's not fucking fair! My friends were sat there talking about how much weight they've lost while eating a fat cheese and ketchup sandwhich each on white bread. I'd never be able to eat that! ffs!!!! Why am I not allowed to lose weight?! They both eat take-aways and drink fizzy drinks, and just sit on their assess doing nothing and they're losing weight!!! aarrrgggg!!! It's not helpful how skinny my boyfriend is either, He's underweight, but ofcourse he can eat whatever he wants. And he keeps telling me to stop obsessing over dieting, and that it's bad for me, I just say "Well you've never been fat, so you don't know how it feels" He says that he's noticed my weight loss, but I know he's lying, I don't think I look thinnner, and the scales say that I've gained, He just wants me to eat normally again. But I don't want to stay fat, I just want all this horrible flab to go away!

I'm really sorry for being so angry and repetative, but I just want to curl up and die! Why aren't I losing weight? How can I make it go away? I know that there's water weight and stuff like that, so for anyone who's done ABC, how long did it take for you to start losing weight? Because I don't know how much longer I can cope with working so hard and getting nothing out of it. :'( I'm meant to have 200kcal today. I bought a tin of tomato soup, and now I don't even think I'm going to eat half of it. I might just leave it for someone else in the house. I wish someone could make me understand weight loss more, I feel like I don't know what I'm doing.
 I feel happy here, on Blogger. I love the girls here. I love the support. Please someone, make me feel better, and like I'm not just a fat failer x