'Something' Has Taught Me Something

*In the class*

Sitting at the best spot in one of the corner in my class, I thought it will give me new motivation for my left-over-assignment. Well, at least allow me to focus in my work. I have been sitting here for hours, yet, nothing had been done. Frustration and disappointment were so overwhelming which discouraged me to concentrate. I have been trying hard to give my best in my typing in spite of the noises, still my mind was being distracted. With the presence of my friends, my course mates, I hardly pay attention in my work.

3 hours have been wasted.

I wonder, how can I redeem them back? The more I think of the amount of work I can do in these 3 hours, the more I feel regret. I am running for my 14-days-marathon and almost half of my 14th day has been wasted.


What should I do?


Regret started haunting me. I thought this room is suppose to be empty, at least an hour. I know I shouldn't choose this spot at the very first place. I should pick somewhere better, somewhere quieter, somewhere comfortable and with electric cable. Maybe the library. Or I shall go back to my room instead.

Anyway, there is something pulling me to enter this room, convincing me to sit here and do my work. It is hard to describe what is the 'something' which had pulled me in, but all I can say it is my instinct, the inner energy.

I know, my plan is not working accordingly and I don't want to do any last minute work (although I am still good in it.. right, popjammerz? haha..). After sitting here, at this exact spot I mentioned earlier, I discovered a few important lessons. I am surprise that I still can learn something at these moment.


Lessons:
1) True friend will never leave you.
2) Life is not about rushing, but it is about enjoying every moment we go through.
3) Be prepared with every possibility - Battle is never easy.


1) True friend will never leave you.

While I was busy focusing my mind into my work, I had almost forgotten my lunch. I thought my 3 balls of Ferrero Rocher Chocolate (which I've just received from my dear friend) will stop my stomach from rumbling. This friend of mine reminded me about my 'food storage system' and disallowed me to skip my feeding session. Knowing that I might skip my lunch, she offered to buy and send me lunch. Free delivery! Frankly, I am touched and I have no any other better words than:

"Thank you Parima'.




Besides her, there are some of my friends who are trying to cheer me up by bringing some jokes. Thank you guys. I know your good intention and I can feel that. I am glad to have you in my life. Just, today is not my day. Do forgive me. If in normal days, I will joke like no tomorrow. Worse than a clown I should say. Lol...

I guess, I am nearing to my period time which causes me feeling a little uncomfortable. I can sense that the level of Estrogen and Progesterone are increasing in my body which unconsciously cause me feel a little moody and uncomfortable (hormonal changes). Well, girls~

:)

2) Life is not about rushing, but it is about enjoying every moment we go through.

Yes. This is one of the very important lesson I learn today. I have been stressing and rushing lately over my task and I just don't feel good about it. Not even a single happiness pop up and say hello to me. What a tragedy. And you know what, I am going to stop that. I am taking things slowly and I am enjoying every bits of my life - while running this marathon.




3) Be prepared with every possibility - Battle is never easy.

Even though I failed to do my work according to my plan today, I am accepting it and promise will do better tonight, and the coming tomorrows. There is no point regretting over the past as no one can fix it nor change the history. What we can do now is to focus in the presence and plan for the future. Battle is never easy but it is not impossible to win.





Photo courtesy: www.thelatern.com


I should say, 'something' which has attracted me to sit on this spot has taught me something important for my life. It gives me a new insight, new perspectives and understanding. I am once again, a happy eggie.. ;D


Thank you 'something'..


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P/s: If you are sensitive and observant enough with your surrounding and your inner voice, 'something' will emerge and you will learn something new - either good or bad.

P/s/s: I'm referring 'Something' = instinct, inner energy, self talk

P/s/s/s: Thank you for your encouraging comments in my previous post. I am gaining new energy from you and thanks a million.. All the best to you too! muacks! :D

Silence Room

Sitting in front of the classroom with my lappy on the table, I felt so bored. Although I managed to access to the provided internet, nothing can be done much as the line is so slow. The speed of the loading page in Facebook, MSN, Bloggerunited, Plurk and even Blogger is so slow and I have no patience in waiting. Just half an hour ago, I was uploading my photos on my 'interesting trip' (I know Caffery and Andrew are waiting for it) but failed, miserably.

In order not to waste my time, I decided to upload them after class.

Being alone, in a corner, my mind is actively processing on both new and old data. I have been thinking a lot about my past and at the same time my future, I mean right at this exact spot which I am sitting now. Most people believe that, thinking of the past will only stop oneself from developing while putting mind in the future is called day-dreaming.

In my case, I will name the above statement as fallacy. No one can prove that recalling the past will stop oneself from improving while being few steps ahead from the presence worth nothing. Instead, I can develop pretty well as I can see both my weakness and strength from the past and empower them for my presence and future.

That is what I call strategy of self improvement. At the same time, I start to understand why we are forced to learn history in high school. There are always reasons behind an incident. I guess I am right.

This silence room has allowed me to develop my critical and creative thinking. I love silence room (but not for too long! I will die of boredom!)

Some of my photos which I had taken awhile ago in this room.




My new nail colour! Hahaha... See ya. Tata.
Oopss.. My lecturer is coming... :P

An Opened Orange Mug

Note: This is not just a story about me but something to be shared about human relationship.


"Draw a picture to represent the value you have. Then share the reason why you think it suits you most", instructed by Nicole, my lecturer.


I was wondering why I pick the orange crayon (although there are another 11 choices) and drew a mug with 2 ears. At the very first place, I thought of drawing a window and I did. However, it had been erased by me. Why? Because it looked more like a box then a window. Lolx.. Then, I come with an idea, why not draw a big cup instead?


So here it is, an orange mug with two big ears.

Say it look like a mug! Haha.. XD

• Orange: Cheerful, energetic and sporting
• Mug: Openness

After drawing our own symbol, each one of us explained the meaning of the object and how it matches our value in a small group.


Once the mentioned procedures were completed, the interesting part of the session was the validation part - in which every member had to give responses, comments or compliment to the member. I shall say this is the best part of the whole session!


Yes! Best part!


I remembered how I complimented others for their positive values and how the drawing matches them. It was an indirect process where we were actually seeing the person as a whole, not part(s) of them. Amazingly, we can only see the good side of them. I guess Gestalt is right.

Conflict, judgement and negative thought on the person are slowly evaporating and they are replaced by better understanding, acceptance and trust. It is amazing how a sharing group can change each member's perspective and I guess this is why counseling group is being introduced in Western countries.


Here is the best part of my story. My real confession.
A dedication to my coursemates who might bump into this post and read it.

I was a bit nervous when it was my turn to accept validation from the others. However, when the session started, I realized I hardly look straight into their eyes. I was too paisheh la..


*blush*
*blush*
*blush*


They showered me with uncountable positive feedbacks and comments on both my drawing and personality. Plus, they agreed the orange mug suits me well! Wu la la~


I never know I am being watched and analyzed by my friends since my very first semester. Oh my. That's sound scary uh? Haha.. Just joking. I was touched by their compliments and those conversations are still spinning in my mind now. Girls and boys, thank for the great moment. I will keep them safely here ---> my heart!


*hugs*
*hugs*


Other than compliments, I am glad to know that my friends do accept me as a friend and enjoy my company all this while. They even thank me for my contribution to the class.


*touched*




I don't know why but love my course even more compare to my previous semesters. It is amazing on how the teaching of the professional lecturers and the syllabus can bring out the best in us. I start to realize the positive changes in everyone of us since last semester and I'm grateful. Seriously, I am.

We are improving from time to time, exploring the positive values in us and live with them. Some people might ignore self exploration, forcing themselves being someone else. Trust me, at the end of the day, you will be exhausted and lost.


At the same time, this group session has make me realized the importance of building a good relationship with people. A good relationship can bring you positive energy, boosting up your motivation and making you stronger. You can feel it if you have a bunch of close friends who have been supporting you all the time.




How to build a good relationship with others?
Honest. Trust. Sincere. Understanding. Respect. Acceptance. Patience.

I Want To Be Somebody!

This is a continuous post from the previous one. Do read this if you haven't so that you are not lost... ;)

Yup! I do have my own dream and I believes everyone of you here have one (or more), am I right? Be it a small-tiny dream or big-stupendous one, it doesn't matter. As long as we have dreams, and stick ourselves to them, I'm sure we can get out from our boring routine. Right?

So, what's on my mind right now? Who I actually want to be for that...

"Somebody?".
"Somebody" here sounds.... cheeky..

Honestly, I'm still thinking of who I want to be? Who should I choose?

Nicolekiss who travel all around the world and at the same time being a columnist for the local newspaper (Thestar). She's a well-known blogger! However, I don't have $$$ to spend on travel. Sigh.. maybe I should be someone who can earn more $$$ first?


Maybe...
I can be like Timothy Tiah or Ming Shen who own a big company (best in Malaysia and Singapore) which is called Nuffnang. Isn't that great? Making business and making friends via blogging at the same time? Wow.. I wanna be like them!

Timothy Tiah

Ming Shen

However, I can't imagine myself building an advertising company called... 'Curryegg.Com'. It sounds like food and not fabulous (but I think it's cute.. haha). Can you imagine Nike ads under Curryegg.Com company and being placed in every blog? Will it sound, humorous? It sounds like food, isn't it? Ok ok. I know they are food!!! Curry and egg. There are quite a number of people asking me why I choose Curryegg as my name. Lol.. maybe you should read this if I haven't answer you.

Maybe I should stop dreaming of being like Timothy and Ming Shen.
Instead, I wanna be like...

The seductive woman like Jessica Alba...



Hot body and attractive features like her have become every girl's dreams (I mean majority of us). Having the chance to appear in the magazine, newspaper, television, posters and even in the handphone wallpaper are FANTABULASTIC!!!! ( Thank Jeffro for giving this term to me.. hehe..)

But.. sigh.. I don't have a hot body nor beautiful features like her. Maybe I should go for plastic surgery? Serious? Nah.. Just joking... :P

Or I should be like Natalie Portman...


She's intelligence, sexy and talented. Ahww... I love her.. ;)
Or even better.. Maria Sharapova who is now a young millionaire.


Millionaire?
Of course she is one of them. She earns from her Tennis games and advertisements. Besides, she has her own perfume!

I want to be like her (a sportswoman) and own myself a perfume with the name of "Curryegg perfume"..
Now, who wanna buy? I will take the order.
*giggles*

Buy for my perfume?

If I don't get any order for my perfume, then I shall rub off the crazy idea and look for someone else. Em... maybe I should be...


Yes.
How about be like Mr.Bean? He's a doctor (am I right?) and at the same time an artist for his show 'Mr. Bean'. I love watching his show when I was a child. Whenever I imagine myself brushing my teeth and changing clothes in the small car, I will start to laugh out loud.. muahahah....

Yes. I wanna be like him, a joker. But shit! I am not good in acting nor joking. No one will sign me for a contract. Sigh...

*erasing my plan*

Now I know...
I want to be "Somebody" who is really "Somebody".
Who else other than Bill Gates?

He has the brain, wealth and luck. Isn't that great? And most importantly, he's a Billionaire!!! Pwweettt.... owning the widest, biggest, glamorous Microsoft company like him.. ;D


Ok. You caught me.
I know nothing about software, not even a simple code like CSS, HTML nor.. Java script. Sigh.. I should take Computer Science instead of Counseling. *Heart-broken*
:(

Maybe I can be like the respectful Venerable Master Hsing Yun by serving and helping the people with his knowledge, love and care.


I love reading his book and intended to follow his footsteps. Ahh ahh ah... Don't get me wrong. I don't mean to be a nun.. I mean, I wish to learn more about Buddha teaching about enlightenment and purpose of life.

Maybe I should agree with Sri Sri Ravi Shankar's idea on this beautiful quote:

"Human evolution has two seps: the first is from being a 'somebody' to being a 'nobody', and the second is from being a 'nobody' to being 'everybody'. this knowledge can bring sharing and caring throughout the world."

Frankly, I agree with Sri Sri Ravi Shankar. Sometimes being a "somebody" isn't sound good nor perfect. You will start creating ego in yourself, alienating others who are not in A class and being very negative with people. As a result, you will never feel love and warm from the people (who are not in the same class as you). Why? Because you start to draw a line, segregating your world from others. For example, if you are someone famous like Michael Jordon, President Ma Ying-Jeou, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, Britney Spears or Jay Chow, you will hardly see them without body-guards.

Of course, being glamorous is so cool. Who don't wanna be one of the star if there is a chance? However, the world will be slightly different by then. As for me, I hope to be "everybody" instead of "somebody" because there are so much to learn from people and not to forget, the environment.

My conclusion: I want to be "myself" who can mix with "everybody".


So, how about you? What is your opinion on "Somebody", "Nobody" and "Everybody"? Which one do you want to be and why? Do share your opinion here. It's OK either you agree or disagree with my point. There will be no harm having a small discussion with us.

Five Year Old Blind Genius Pianist

I love Facebook!
I love all my friends in Facebook!
I love every awesome stuffs in Facebook!

Facebook!
Facebook!
Facebook!

Heeelllppp! I couldn't stop myself from falling deeper for Facebook. Why? You ask me why? Who can resist all those cool facilities and games in the largest social community (Facebook) right now? I don't know why I couldn't stop myself from mentioning the word "FaceB*#k". God! Please save me...

It's all because of my secondary school teacher, Mrs Joanne... She has caused my unstoppable tears.. Sob... She had sent me a very touching video clip in Facebook. My eyes still filling with tears right now. Gosh..

This is the best ever video clip I had ever watched!
(Psst.. Prepare a box of tissue before watching this)






It is hard for me to believe her ability in playing the piano so good although she's blind. She can play any song after hearing it once. ONCE! Can you believe it? She's really incredible! I feel embarrass with myself. I've been learning piano since age 7 but I can't play as well as her.

OMG! Digg me a hole and I want to hide my face in it.. (#_#)

I never realize that I've been given everything ever since I was born. I've a pair of good functioning eyes, ears, nose,mouth and body but I never appreciate them. Instead, I complain them a lot. Sorry mum, starting from now on I will appreciate my eyes and my height. Lol...

Watching this video clip has really touched my heart. This little girl is blind but. However, is very talented in music which has made her a genius. I'm not just admiring her ability in playing the piano well but her strong determination and desire in learning the piano as well. This little girl has never give up of hope although she live in the world of darkness ever since she was born. We shall learn from her.

OMG!
My eyes are filling with tears again. Sob...
Again, thank you Mrs Joanne for sending this video clip to me. hugs..