Okay, so, I have no boobs. Well, I have them but they are tiny, I hardly ever wear a bra because I just don't need too, I hardly fill an AA cup.It doesn't matter how much weight I gain they never get any bigger. Everyone else I know who has been anorexic and gained weight have got their boobs back and I'm still stuck with the chest of a thirteen year old.
It never used to get me down but just recently I've started to hate it. Even though I am not thin, the whole 'real woman have curves' campaign of thought depresses the hell out of me. I don't have curves, I gain weight straight on and off my stomach and thighs but I don't ever have hips or boobs or a bum.
I had a bit of a dissociative incident about a month back and woke up with my chest covered in scars, since then I've been obbsessed about how unattrative that must make me, how no-one would EVER want to see me naked...
I don't feel like a 'real woman' and the idea of trying to get an NHS boob job is becoming increasingly attractive.
So, are boobs important? Does having no chest make me completely unattrative and unsexualised?
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